The Work of Personal Holistic Healing
Related discussions:
Systemic Health,
Global Awakening,
Assorted Brief Writings.
Also see these comments on the book The Heart of the Soul. It describes a related process of personal holistic healing.
The ideas presented in this series of discussions are a product of a broader work of personal holistic healing that I am engaged in. Below is a poem that goes some way toward expressing the flavour of my own work, in this poem the bulk of the systemic ideas presented on this website are referred to by the phrase “the mystery of the whole”.
“To overcome the suffering of the world is a great and difficult thing,
to have one's innocent love turned to disgust and malice by the privations of the world,
but then in solitude and by the grace of God to transmute this perverted love into a higher Love,
that encompasses even darkness, that comprehends the mystery of the whole.
Many souls have trodden this path through the valley of darkness and into the rising dawn,
May they guide and inspire others to endure the poison of their malice,
to see the divinity of all things and to commune with the Light that shines from within.
May we not succumb to hate but transmute this into fierce and joyous Love.
May this cosmic energy flow and fill the void of our ignorance and fear,
may it cast out the shadows of evil that lurk amidst our doubt and confusion,
may it bring wholeness and healing to that which is broken and dying.
Life, Love and Truth are three in one,
this is the will of God
this is the will of the intelligent Universe.”
This work is a product of my own natural healing processes but I trust it may be of help to others. That healing process is beyond simple description but on a purely mundane level it can best be described as a life and death battle for sanity, meaning and belonging in a world that seemed dangerously psychotic, randomly meaningless and inhumanly alienating. My first true experience of the evil in this world came in high school, where as an innocent child I was racially vilified by my peers, harassed and abused by authority figures and the very system itself was breaking my spirit and crippling my mind. I no longer blame them, they were acting out the ignorance that festers within each of us; they thought that I was a machine to be programmed or a formless lump of clay to be beaten into shape or a “foreigner” to be driven back to where I came from. But I am a being in the world, a product of billions of years of creative evolution by the entire cosmos, and I was born here and we were all immigrants and foreigners in this land, I was merely part Asian whilst they were European.
During the period of what should have been my induction into society and the world, I became deeply traumatised and alienated from society, from the world, from my Self and from God. Then I fell off the end of that conveyor belt and onto another where I was relabelled from 'student' to 'job seeker' but my life split in two. One part of me primarily just thrashed about in pain and confusion whilst the other part turned within to seek answers; that part of me led me into many profound and subtle enquiries into arcane mysteries and also into attending university and studying physics and computer science. I'm not sure what happens to that part of other people when they turn away from the world but for the outer part that one can observe, virtually everyone that I have known has been in a similar predicament to me; thrashing about in pain and confusion of some kind, differentiated primarily by varying degrees of self deception, denial and repression of their pain. Those that were considered 'successes' where those who repressed their pain by striving for social acceptance or by accumulating consumer goods; these people shine when seen through the eyes of ignorance but they are dull and lifeless when seen through the eyes of wisdom or the eyes of innocence.
Over time I have become highly sensitive to the evil in the world and have thus been squeezed out of society and into isolation and obscurity; it is here that I have found some peace and have had a chance to heal. As a component of the natural healing process I have been pursuing answers to four fundamental questions:
What am I? What is this place? What is happening? What can and should be done?
It was obvious to me that nobody I knew could help answer these questions. I know now there are beings in the world that could but I know not who they are, however I suspect that they have been helping me nevertheless, as they help us all. Everyone I have known has either assumed they knew but they knew only assumptions or their life forces were engaged in playing the game of modern life; in either case their minds were closed.
I only briefly touch directly upon the question “What am I?” at present since it has been exhaustively answered through such avenues as Vedanta and Yoga and it is a deep and subtle enquiry best undertaken through personal experience. The scientific analysis presented here goes some way toward answering the question “What is this place?” but it is also intimately related to both the first two questions. An understanding of the first two questions creates a context in which it is possible to begin to coherently approach the second two questions. There is much that I can already say in regards to the question “What is Happening?”, however there is a great deal happening on different levels, but one major phenomena of relevance to we contemporary humans I refer to as The Second Cambrian Explosion, which is introduced in an essay with that title. Concerning the question “What can and should be done?” my understanding is still growing but I will for now hint at it in the form of poetic metaphor:
“In the stillness of my soul,
the voice of silence spoke to me.
In words of timeless wisdom it said:
Listen not to the voice of fear,
but to the voice of intuition,
for evil controls you through your fear
and God guides you through your intuition.
To follow the path of fear is to walk with evil
into the land of darkness, despair and destruction.
To follow the path of intuition is to walk with angels
into the land of Light, Love and Life.
Know that Beauty and Joy are the mark of sacred Truth,
and ignorance the root of evil.
Engage not in fools debates and resist not evil,
but rise upon the wings of wisdom,
radiating the Light of Heaven like a dancing star,
then the Earth shines with Beauty and All creatures live in Joy.”
I am not alone and not separate; nothing is. My heart is one with all who suffer the privations of ignorance, delusion, arrogance and mindless brutality; all humans, all beings and especially our Mother Earth. What other's consider normal often sickens me to the core of my being and I have never met a whole, happy and healthy human being. I will not be truly healed until I find a way to share some of the healing with which I have been blessed, and as we each share our blessings we magnify them until the whole world is healed. Ultimately, I work not for myself, I am but a tool in the hands of God, a fragment of the intelligent universe. I work in the hope that I may assist in giving hope to future generations.
Through this work I have been healed to a significant extent; I am no longer dying and although I am still very much broken a fire has ignited inside. Now that this work has driven me out of the safety of obscurity I pray that I will not become an object in other's delusions and be harassed but that I may encounter like minds that are sincere, humble and reverent of Truth.
May God guide and bless us all, for we are the breaking wavefront of creation as it sweeps through time; life is intrinsic to the cosmos, we beings are a phase transition that will eventually change the face of creation, far more than the stars have done. Each new phase of creation lays down the foundation for all later creation; if we are to realise our rightful place in this universe we must align with Truth and create in ways that harmoniously build upon our foundation; the Earth and human nature.
Boomshankar and God Bless