Disclaimer and Description of General
Method of Enquiry
Given the scientific and mathematical format of parts of this work it is likely that some may confuse it for a work of traditional Western science although the other aspects will quickly change their minds. Indeed there is a great deal of science here, however I must give this warning. Even though these ideas are expressed largely in the language of Western science they were not derived through the traditional scientific method and although I have to some degree mathematically verified them for internal consistency, they have not been verified in any traditional sense. The aim was never to produce a scientific theory; this has arisen as an offshoot that has grown since 2000. Thus if one tries to understand it as a traditional scientific theory one will see that it is not developed as one and it will require considerable work to polish it up as an artefact of reliable collective knowledge. I hope that others who are far more able than I at such things will assist in this. I also hope that this may be of assistance to others in their own pursuit of truth and that they will assimilate some of this into their own work and that we may all grow and evolve thereby.
The format of this work is not that of a finished coherent argument leading to a clearly defined result, this is more a collection of notes that are variously related to a broad area of enquiry. These have been loosely organised and released in the hope that they may be of use to someone. Within these notes there lies a paradigm that is striving for expression, if one can glimpse that paradigm clearly in ones mind then the words and symbols have served their purpose. I am not trying to sell anything or force anything onto resistant minds, thus one must enquire into this work if any benefit is to be found, in this respect it is very different to most contemporary works and many people will find this aspect to be quite confusing. Many people seem to expect everything to be polished up and nicely presented on a sales display complete with accompanying advetising slogans, but here you must dig up and polish your own gems if you are to find any.
The ideas presented here are a small part of a much broader work of holistic healing and holistic understanding. The principle methods used were deep contemplation, faith, intuition and synchronicity, accompanied by intellectual analysis and verification; i.e. experiencing awareness itself rather than just the objects of awareness and trusting that this world is coherent, comprehensible, intelligent and indeed that it wants to be known. Some of the detailed aspects of the method are; opening up to the world around me, allowing God to be my 'guru' and the world to be my teacher, contemplation, meditation, prayer, drugs, fasting, yoga, wu wei (or flowing with the Tao and not clinging to the world), consulting the Tarot and I Ching, interpreting ancient metaphors with sensitivity and respect thereby revealing ancient wisdom and taking it seriously (without sensitivity and respect one only reveals one's own prejudices), breaking of taboo, social alienation, psychological isolation, study of various transcendent and empirical sciences (particularly Vedanta, Kabbalah, Mathematics, Computational Science and Physics), the study of anything and everything that the world presented to me as a lesson and the gradual accumulation and maintenance of rarefied states of mind over days, weeks, months and years. My life has been the experiment and my mind is the result.
The majority of the key ideas presented here were first received as direct intuitive inspiration, this then resided in my intuition whilst my rational mind struggled to comprehend it, much like the remnant of a bizarre dream that one's mind cannot quite grasp. However my intuition would retain it, whereas a bizarre dream quickly slips away. Over time I would gradually develop a clear understanding in my mind, this would be achieved primarily by superimposing the intuitive understanding over my experiential world and trying to look through it, like a lens, and I would observe how my perceptual world would thereby be altered. In this way my mind would develop ways of cognitively grasping the intuitive knowledge; however this was in the form of extremely subtle holistic states of mind. Then over time I would gradually develop a conceptual language with which to represent it to myself and I would start to be able to manipulate these concepts and explore their relationships. Then I would gradually develop ways of speaking about them to myself within my own mind and also recognising them in the metaphors of others. Then I would try and externalise this understanding in words, images, poetry, life decisions, outward behaviour, scientific models, etc. Then I was led to the idea of using concepts derived from computational science, information theory and system theory; I developed crude mathematical methods and built software models of simple system scenarios. It is only since mid 2005 that I have begun to express the ideas in the language of mathematics and science in general and to mathematically verify my intuitive understanding. I had hoped to work on these ideas for some time before publishing however there have been synchronistic events that indicate that the time has come, and the I Ching is explicit in it's advice (as always) saying that I am to “speak out publicly in the rulers court”. Thus many of these ideas are not refined, but ready or not, they are cast into the world.
This overall method is the reverse (and the antithesis) of the traditional scientific method, although it relies on similar methods at times, when a theoretician has an idea in a dream or simply follows a 'hunch', but it generally denies and misunderstands these methods whereas I explicitly employ them. Hence the ideas presented here are intuitively well understood by me but this is only the first attempt at expressing them in a manner that may be comprehensible to rational minds. There are many flaws and these are due to weaknesses in my mind's ability to grasp and represent the intuitive knowledge; the intuition itself feels to be whole and complete. The intuitive certainty gives rise to a general tone of certainty throughout the work, however this could be misleading as many of the actual intellectual facts may not be correct or only partially correct, everything requires rigorous validation before one can be certain about the actual statements being made.
Furthermore, I am not a converger by nature, I do not normally express myself in such a rational explicit manner and my style of work is a constant and evolving brainstorm, hence producing these documents has been a very difficult and exhausting process, but I have done my best and God has been my guide. Generally, if I record my ideas at all in an external format it is as very brief sketches that are only barely enough for me to be able to remind myself of the key points at a later date; I have approximately ten thousands pages of such notes. I instinctively refrain from converging as I feel that it tends to collapse the wavefunction of my thoughts and they become trapped in narrow, explicit and symbolic forms that are unable to comprehend the complexity and subtlety of my experiential world. One cannot think in language and symbols and hope to even be able to perceive one's full reality, one must stop the babbling mind to read Truth from the pages of the Akashic Record. Then one may babble about it if one wishes; but one should speak from wisdom or one must be prepared to bear the consequences, for Truth is a powerful force that cannot be abuse with impunity.
I have not developed any rational plan for this work or any priorities in regards to what to cover or what to release when and so forth, nor are there any goals. If I had defined such things they would quickly become redundant as I changed and the work changed and I wouldn't follow them anyway, so it would be pointless. But it is also the case that I don't plan to not have a plan, sometimes I do have plans and they serve some purpose for a short time, but ultimately I follow my inner compass and I write what flows through my fingers. My work is synchronistic and unguided by myself. I seek no particular goal except understanding, beyond that I only know that I would probably have to kill myself to stop myself from doing this work, so I just keep doing it; just like breathing, it is a function of what I am.
Furthermore, don't expect me to put up a coherent front, there are many contradictions and paradoxes within me. Whilst ultimately I hope to resolve all such things I will not wear a mask or artificially sterilise my inner diversity to conform with some peoples expectations.
The scientific aspects of the work presented here have not been exhaustively tested, analysed or verified in any traditional sense and has not even been looked at by any other person prior to publishing. Some earlier work I tried to express in the context of system oriented software engineering just to get some of the core ideas into the world so they could start to evolve but nobody really understood it, the time was not right and my words were inadequate. I work alone, in isolation and in poverty (however I am rich in most ways that have value to me); I have no assistance and the bare minimum of resources; so please do not expect this to conform to the standards of industrialised mass science or any collectively organised form of enquiry. I am only one person and I do what I can.
I humbly present these ideas as food for thought in the belief that they may be of use to others. I personally seek to pursue no particular agenda in the world, however I feel that the world is working through me in some inscrutable way, and as such I trust that this work may assist in some manner to further the general discourse of reason, hope and enquiry into Truth.
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Below is a poem I wrote that has relevance here:
I am not a scientist or academic or scholar,
I am a fool and a visionary,
ideas are not my profession, I am not a technician or engineer of ideas,
ideas are my artistic medium, they are my passion and my obsession.
They are my drug of choice, they are my food, my sex and my entertainment,
they are my blood, my life and the product of my most sacred communion with God.
Ideas flow through me I do not work with them.
I am not a researcher, I am a cup flowing from the fountain and I am a fruit bearing tree,
and what I see is what I see, and that I record as best I can,
my words are a sketch pad of my experience of reality, an artist's impression,
these words can never capture the ideas, which are states of mind,
let alone the underlying reality, which is beyond all ideas.
An artist draws a stroke of ink on paper, but what does it mean?
It is an invitation to resonate with that form in the world,
but how that resonance evolves depends on the perceiver.
Into the world that signal is sent to trace along many causal paths.
So make of these words what you will,
I make no claims regarding these words,
even those words that seem to be making claims, such as these,
just as an artist makes no guarantee that their vision will correspond with another's,
even though the images look provocatively like something in the mind of the viewer.
This is a disclaimer urging you not to take me too seriously since I do not take myself seriously.
I am what I am,
I live simply so do not mistake me for being civilised, or sophisticated,
I have no such pretensions.
In regards to these words,
I am a channel for ideas that flow through me,
and I thirst for understanding,
that is all I can say for certain.
But do not take my word for it,
these too are just words flowing through me,
what do they mean?
What is this all about?
And who is this 'I' and 'me' at the center of all this commotion?
From within the stillness, none of this matters,
there is peace and wholeness.